you've killed me.
you've murdered the trust i once had in people and you'll never know the damage you have done because you refuse to even look at me, think back to the times when we so close that trust just came naturally.
you broke it.
you shattered it into tiny little specks that can't even be called pieces.
i'll never be that way again.
these eyes are like glass, hollow and transparent and i can't even hide my feelings away in myself anymore. they come spilling out like ocean waves, crashing into tears for the whole world to see.
i used to be so strong,what happened? the walls around me haven't crumbled, they've been rebuilt with ten times the durability and i'm trying to claw my way out of them, but i'm left with bleeding nails and a broken heart.
i want to scream but i feel like no one can hear me, no one is listening...
...my ears can't pick up the sound, i've suddenly gone deaf and i'm loosing breath because i'm suffocating.
these walls around me are closing in and i'm choking on the lack of air, too dark to see and my non-existent screams are bouncing off walls and reverberating off of my broken heart.
my heart and head don't connect anymore and my mouth is miles away.
i don't think before i speak, i let my emotions run away from me and i'm left in the dust as i try to catch up with myself.
i've cried myself a river that i can't build a bridge and get over.
i'm torn up from the inside out with razorblade words you've cut me with and i'm slowly bleeding myself to death.
i used to think trust was easy, but how can it still be easy when i don't believe in anything anymore?
i want to believe in you.
i want to believe in us but i need someone to save me because i'm digging a hole for myself that is constantly getting deeper and i can't get out of it myself.
hold my hand.
pull me out of this rut.
give me something to believe in.
