dreaming is so much better than reality to the point where i don't ever want to wake up.
in dreams i can feel you wrap your arms around me and hold me tight, taste the sweet kisses from lips i've never touched.
why are you so far away?
it hurts.
my heart aches and not in that way that good kind of way i want it to, complete with butterflies set free inside your stomach. it's the way that hurts when you swallow, stomach twists and knots and feels like you can't breathe...like you're trapped underwater and drowning to death, anchor tied to your ankles and weighing you down.
it's wrong, in so many ways it's terribly wrong but then why does it feel like the right thing to do?
i can't stop this heart from beating.
don't tease me, don't end up saying it's all a lie because i could never live with that. i close my eyes and all i can see is you, is that mutual?
god, i pray every night that it is, hugging my pillow tightly to my chest pretending it's you.
itsnotwrong.
he's breathing next to me and i just want to block it all out. this isn't how it's supposed to be, that should be you lying next to me. sometimes i cry myself to sleep because i've never felt so alone in my life.
i'm lost.
i'm stranded in the middle of nowhere and you hold the map, so come rescue me.
when i was younger i was told if you wished hard enough, whatever you want will come true. so i'm sitting here now, watching for shooting stars and waiting till the clock turns 11:11.
nothing's happening.
when will i have my happy ending?
i need this like a bad habit. pleasebewithme.
